What does it mean to be at the peripheral, when I want to embody and search for the center. Feeling on the peripheral and wanting the opportunity to be a part of, wholeness, there looking out and seeing this new road, traveling and learning together.

The ship changed course and it was okay, I was able to see other options. I wasn't in my desolate black and white thinking. I was able to see a new shore. I was able to begin to breathe again and know that, baby, every little thing is going to be alright.

What happens when road blocks are present How do you take on a new meaning and perception if life just keeps putting curve balls in your face. For so long: loss was I. I was loss. I redefined and I want my meaning to be about gaining. I'm trying to gain, to embrace a "holy gaining" and all I am getting served is loss. Wtf. Come on life. I am trying and all I get is loss after the next. Throw this girl a bone- I sat on the Atlantic and I truly felt an authentic "I am ready" and all I get is subtraction. I am not good at math, however I am smart enough to understand that tides change and I am ready for my tide changer. Addition come to me (hehe). I am ready to embrace. Patience can be a little bitch sometimes, excuse the french.

Embrace your little monsters

Embrace your little monsters. Your little monsters can be many things, the insecurities and fears that creep up on you. I have mine and this past week I feel like I have indeed been reminded of my little monsters. I fear my little monsters, but I had a thought... maybe it is time to give a little lovin to my little monsters. Instead of fearing these creatures of doubt and insecurity... what would happen if I acknowledged them, sat with them, gave them some attention? What would it look like to be present with my little monsters, and if I faced them head on would they really be that scary? Would they be all that I had them cracked up to be, and maybe just maybe I might love my little monsters. After all, they indeed might keep me grounded, humbled, and in check. This week I was reminded of my little monsters and maybe it's okay to be attentive to them and they might just teach you a thing or two.

Tapas in dc and data collection almost complete. It is amazing how much I stressed over this. However I should up and advocated for the cause and for myself with awesome help from friends and it worked out. I am surprised at the responsiveness! I also wonder why I was so surprised. I realize I often speculate things won't work out and I feel a need to do it all but right when I walk in the Hyatt I was completely supported and people were genuinely excited for this study. There were kinks and mess ups but over all I feel like it was a success and I did to the best of my abilities. I can't wait to look at the data!

To fall in love with a city! Georgia, wow you have truly blown me away! Especially Savannah, you are mix of berkeley and small town san francisco with a hint of Davis. If traveling through savannah I highly recommend foxy Loxy cafe and Back in the day bakery. I am all about unique spaces especially for deliciousness going into my belly. This space is artirific, all of it. So inspired to paint and feeling alive traveling! I forgot how important recharge time is for me. Two days ago I sat on the beach at Tybee Island and how cool, porch swings on the beach. To be able to sit and reflect is so important to me and I forget that sometimes. It is easy for me to get wrapped up in the swing of things and give up a lot of myself to commitments. It is my do good caring nature. I put the other guy infront of myself at the risk of losing myself. Traveling and excursions on my own is refreshing it is a reminder to take care of myself. I will be ready to go forth with my dealio in California and excited for the things to come. Practicum and life excitement here I come, remembering take your time heather and know that you are capable. ... As for the mean time, time to drink more sweet tea and enjoy the south just a little bit longer. Feeling good.

Tapas in dc and data collection almost complete. It is amazing how much I stressed over this. However I showed up and advocated for the cause and for myself with awesome help from friends and it worked out. I am surprised at the responsiveness! I also wonder why I was so surprised. I realize I often speculate things won't work out and I feel a need to do it all but right when I walk in the Hyatt I was completely supported and people were genuinely excited for this study. There were kinks and mess ups but over all I feel like it was a success and I did to the best of my abilities. I can't wait to look at the data!