Recently, I have been thinking: about ache and letting go of the past. I was rereading a journal I keep adding to. It is a journal created by Sabrina Ward Harrison. An awesome journal artist that collaborates wise words and space for you to vent, tell your story, etc. If interested here is her website, to me it's drool worthy...
http://www.sabrinawardharrison.com/ee/
Anyway- I have been having dreams about grief, loss, and ache... And I think it is about letting go. So here is the entry by Sabrina Ward Harrison that struck me tonight, yet again, like many times before...
"Ache
the toppling over, the feeling that something vital is disintegrating, the stuck in the muck feeling, seeping out at the edges- oh- I want to twist away from these loneliness. There seems to be no place for it in the swirling world around me. All this sadness and unexpressed parts. We can end up carrying all this sadness and unexpressed bits of ourselves if we don't speak up, spill open, and be truly as we are.
I am learning that loving all the way can ache and sting but loving halfway doesn't keep us safe, it leaves us with a hope that could never live out loud. Let yourself pour forward and be a place for your ache to rest." (p 53, The True and the Questions)
So I am learning to love all the way and to not take halfsie love as sufficient. For self, partner, and community I wanna love and have love in return all the way. Release, let go... and time to pour forward.
